dont know whats happening to me or if the change thats occuring is good or bad.Lately ive been surrounded by constant pressure and stress thats wearing out the body.People always wanting to fight or attempt to rob me or lure me in to become jus like them gettin involved in drugs ruining my health and the thing i love to do bodybuilding and art and havin fun and playin around.i still keep fighting to become happy and relax but everytime i want to theres always someone who wants to fight or rob.i may be gettin stronger but the environment is takin a toll on the body and depriving me of becoming the nice person that i am.but i wont allow that to happen ,for with each toll the more nicer i am to people around me who jus wants to play have fun hang out and enjoy life and dont do drugs and alcohol.but im also gettin ideas off my experiences in life and putting em down into concept sketch art i can use later for something i may want to do.
my art is already in a coloring book around the world for kids ages if i remember correctly from 5or 3 to 7.i never got to see the book since i created it in school and by the time the book was goin to be presented i had to leave for my next class,i nvr got to see the cover but new the contents within contained the art of the ones selected of artists within the class and other class periods.the art of mine was a little anthrown wolf pup puttin up a paw with presents around and a giant surround sound stereo speaker in the back and a giant bone on the floor with him smiling.i havnt given him a name but i deiced to call him wolfy.since i have a passion for wolves and love anime so i put one in creation,theres an amusing and kickass story behind him.but its to be read within the comic i have in creation.but long as i know that at least one of my art is goin to someones such as little kids im grateful and im proud of myself and what ive done.
theres alot to me but if i keep thinking of positive thoughts such as the good things ive done and keep doin good things i should be ok.i love art,bodybuilding music video games anime and food.i love em too much.but the more i write this down the more i srt to become a little more happy inside.soon people will be able to see the true side of me the happy playful generous and jus good type of person that i am.im nothin more than a lonewolf in this life
who jus wanders endlessly heling those in need taking out those wanting to cause harm.thers a lot to me but no matter who that person is they wont be able to figure me out so simply its nothin more than a puzzle if youd like to solve it you can but id be amazed and take my hat off to one very one or ones who do end up solving myself.
this change within i wish i knew how id end up or what i will become but striving and fighting to be the nice person i want to show the world and to people around,but long as they make assumptions and judgements all they'll get in return is perhaps an innocent soul who been put away or themselves in a tighter more life threating possible situation.but as long as i keep doing my part and staying the nice person i am and only hearing the good things that come out of peoples mouths instead of the bad everythin should be fine.

if i dont get to that point and show the people then o well.long as i know how i am trully im good for now.but this change that happening who knows where itll take me.hopefully into someplace nice and warm. ((to be continued))